Shoot him in the face, huh? Sounds like a murder 1 conviction girlie. But thanks for the offer. It doesn't matter now. He can't effect me anymore, except at work. At work, he likes to make Robert's life hell, not mine, but Robert can deal with it. I tend to mention the times that Ralph is an ass to our district manager so that the information gets passed along. Harassment is a no-no.

So today is a big day. A super mega big day. Robert and I are going to meet his mother, grandparents, step-father, 2 brothers, and sister in law. All in one meeting. Oh boy. Guess who's nervous...me. Firstly, I am 3 years older than him. Secondly, I'm not Christian and his younger brother is a youth pastor and the rest of his family is pretty religious, but strangely Robert is pretty moderate. He seems to think that Christianity should be about loving people, and that church is often about hating other people. So he's not really down with the church. We get along in that regard...and almost every other regard. Thirdly, we live together...in sin...in a one bedroom apt. Oh boy! I just hope I don't do anything stupid like say "fuck" seventy times in a row, or hit my thumb and say "Jesus Christ" or "Goddamn it", you know, phrases I love. I also have no idea what to wear. Robert says is casual, but it seems to me when you go to meet the entire family that you should probably not wear your "Gettin' Lucky in Kentucky" t-shirt. (Just kidding I wasn't planning on wearing that ever, around them).

When his mom called to ask us over for dinner, Robert was so cute...he paused and told his mom he had to ask me first...so he paused, put his phone on mute, and then asked me very seriously, if I wanted to meet almost everyone in his family at one dinner. I said yes. I find it very hard to say no to him, because he's so honest with me, and I know that if I had said no, he would have been completely okay with it.

Everything is so much easier with Robert. There are no head games or drama. When I want to do something or go somewhere, I just tell him and we do it. Whenever I cook something he talks about how great it is or how wonderful it is that I would cook for him. We are clicking wonderfully...and of course the bedroom antics are pretty wonderful too.

Anyway, I'm sure I'll make it through tonight. Robert promised to not leave me high and dry ever and to inform Michael (his younger brother/youth pastor) not to be a pastor tonight. So I'm ok. probably.

oh boy. Love you girlies...

Manda