Hello all!

Hey girls. Sorry for the sporadic posts, but I've been crazy busy. Not only do I have to finish up stuff for work (cause it is my last day on Friday), but I had a whole bunch of errands to run (as I am skipping town on Sunday). Furthermore, Kevin's b-day is on Friday, so I've been busy planning for that. Also, I had to put the final touches on the baby sweater I was making (you know me, I am a perfectionist). Below are some pics of the sweater. My friend absolutely loved it. She said she can't wait for her soon to be son to use it. She had actually opened my present first, and she could not stop talking about it even when she was opening other presents.









Amanda, your parents are so cute (if they are your parents). Anyway, I really do like the idea of donating to an organization. I enjoy helping others. All the orgs. sound good, and I will keep my eye out for anymore. Then we should have a vote. Every little bit helps, right? Girl power!!! (lol)

Well, I have some laundry and packing to do.

I miss you two!!!

Jen

Give a little bit....

I've thought about organizing a charity knitting event at the store, but ya'll are just too far away to particpate. :)

So far as just giving money is concerned, there's always Heifer International. http://www.heifer.org/ I'd recommend honey bees (since they're only $30 and are so desperately needed) or seedlings (only $10, good for the whole planet). Don't do the bunnies though, they get eated!!!! :(

Mother bear is also great http://www.motherbearproject.org/.

I also like the idea of knitting hats for preemies, or blankets for the SPCA, but I can't find the sites for that. I'll check Knitting for Peace tomorrow at work for the links.

BTW, Reynolds makes an amazing washable wool. http://yarn.com/webs/0/0/0/0-1001-1294-1323/0/0/4154/ I didn't even realize it was wool when I picked it up.

Kudos to Amanda

That was one of the most fantastic posts we have had yet...incredibly uplifting. I just thought you should know, Manda. I'll post more later when I get the chance.

Love ya lots,
Jen

Something Good

This is a picture of my parents. Yes, they do in fact exist. (Katie still has doubts even after meeting them on 2 separate occasions). My mom is celebrating her 56th birthday today. She is a Leo and proud of it. Trust me. She's a Leo. And with you ladies I am glad that I am no longer dating a Leo, although dating a Libra (no offense Jen) is sometimes frustrating when you just want the other person to make a damn decision. Anyway, don't know where that little astrological rant came from, but moving on... I've decided that women today need to shut the hell up. If I read one more thing about wrinkles, botox, lipo, or plastic tits I'm going to scream. My mom looks great. She takes care of herself, even if she has to because she's constantly injuring herself, and she enjoys life. She doesn't smoke, do drugs, gamble, or drink heavily (shit two beers and she's done). She still likes to sail with my dad and enjoys quilting and painting the interior of our house like 7 different colors between my visits, but who cares right? I'm just tired of women reaching a certain age and deciding that they look like garbage. Women are strong. Especially, American women, but we can't seem to stop focusing on the exterior. My newest challenge for us wonderful kick ass bitches of 121 is to realize how great we are and then turn that positive energy outward. I think we should start doing what we can for the rest of the world's women. The ones who could a shit about plastic surgery, and are more concerned about feeding their families. So I'm recommending a cause or a charity for us to focus on. Nothing crazy...I realize that none of us are pulling in six figures but something small can go a long way. So ladies I'm open to suggestions, let me know what you think and let's do it for our moms. Shit, Jen you're mom so tough she's going to kick cancer's ass like no body's busy, and Katie your mom (although a little wacky) is going to eventually tell her family the truth (I'll leave it at that for now...). These ladies are powerful and so are we damn it.

Ok, that is my feminist rant for the day. No more reading about plastic surgery gone wrong, and then seeing a show about female genital mutilations for me. But seriously girls I have a few ideas but I need to research them. Just tell me what you think. It could be like a monthly thing or something as small as the Mother Bear Foundation (we all have excessive amounts of extra yarn hanging around...).

Love you girls!

Amanda

Sexual harassment panda

Alright, so I just got back from Minneapolis. It was a nice visit, except for the sexual harrasment, and note that I'm not making a funny reference to Eric. Here's the whole, sordid tale.

So I got there Sunday morning. Eric and I went to brunch, hung out until we could check into the hotel (cause Eric's place was too small for 2), took a nap, went to dinner, went to bed early. Monday I got up and rode downtown with Eric and went shopping. There was a Saks 5th Avenue outlet, which was fantastic: I got a cashmere cardigan and scarf set, originally $650, for $60. I met Eric for lunch, then he got me a cab and I went back to the hotel. My plan was to finish knitting the baby sweater I was making for Eric's friends, who we were meeting for dinner that night.

The hotel phone rang. When I picked it up, a guy asked for Amber. I told him he had a wrong number and hung up. The phone rang again, and this time when I picked it up the caller whispered something dirty. I hung up, unphased; not like I've never gotten an obscene phone call before. Then however, it occurs to me; when I used called my Grandparents when they were staying in Gainesville, I had to know their last name to be put through to their room. There was a strong possibility that the call had been made from one of the other rooms in the hotel. I finished knitting the last part of the sweater, then went to the lobby, because I needed to borrow scissors. They wouldn't let me bring them back to the room, but that was no problem. I also asked if they could tell where the phone call had come from, but they couldn't.

I went back to the room to get the sweater. A tall asian guy walked behind me from the bar area to his room, so I didn't think anything of it. I took the sweater to the lobby and used the scissors to cut off some loose ends. I went back to the room, and the same guy walked behind me. This caught my attention. I sat in the room sewing up the seams, then went back to the lobby one last time. The guy started to walk behind me again. It had occured to me last time that if he were behind me when I opened my room, he could shove me in and that would be bad. Very, very bad. So I waited for him to pass me in the hall. As he did, his hand bumped my ass. Now I was really, really freaked out, and a minute later the phone rang again. I didn't answer it; I barracated the door and waited for Eric to come back.

When he got there I told him what happened, and we went to the front desk. I asked for a room change, and when the guy behind the counter (who was so great about this whole thing) asked what happened, I got a little teary-eyed and choked up. I hadn't realized that I was that freaked out. The guy moved us to a totally different part of the hotel, on a different floor. He told us to call if we saw the guy. As we moved my stuff I saw him and Eric called the front desk. The hotel person came and dragged him to the front, had me ID him, and then asked if it was his voice on the phone. I couldn't be sure, since most of what he said had been whispered, but I thought it was. The hotel guy couldn't kick creepy asian man out without me being 100% sure it was him on the phone. I decided that since we were in a totally different part of the hotel and the guy was checking out tomorrow that he didn't need to be kicked out. The hotel person told him he would be watching the security cameras, and if the guy came anywhere near me or there were anymore complaints he would call the police.

So, then Eric and I met his friends for dinner. The wife was going to take me out the next day, but I spent the first half of Tuesday throwing up for no particular reason, so that got canceled. I felt better later in the day and Eric and I went to the partner dinner that was the whole reason for the timing of my trip. Wednesday I went shopping with his friend's wife and then had dinner with Eric.

So really, uneventful except for being stalked and throwing up half a day.

~ Katie

Stuff...and Junk

Hey ladies. So hmm. I've decided to do a quickie tonight even though I was up at 2am and haven't had a nap today...yawn. This is a busy week. I worked Sunday morning, Publix on Mon. Big ass Albertson's in Lady Lake today, and a Sears duo Wed and Thurs. I'm hoping I at least get some descent overtime because my paycheck is really going to suck, post-vacation paycheck syndrome, or PVPS.

Today I did an Albertson's and worked my little fingers to the bones. I counted almost all the HBA (health and beauty). Well like 5 aisles worth. Then I did the backroom, no biggie there, and counted 1/2 the liquor store. I am tired. I don't mind early stores, like Publix, which starts at 5am, but when the store has an early start like that I hate it when it's out of town. Lady Lake is so far away so I have to get up even earlier just to make it to the meet site to catch the van. (Gas is way too expensive for me to driving myself) I actually thought today was going to be like 11 hours of work to be honest. It was a good day though and it only took 8 hours to complete the store. Of course, then I had a hour and a half drive home, which is a bummer. I was hoping to take a nap when I got home but things didn't work out that way.

One of Ralph's best friends is currently in Iraq. He has been there since Oct. or so. Before he shipped out him and his fiance had a courthouse wedding so that she could talk to him as much as possible...the army doesn't see girlfriends as the same status as wives. So ever since Ralph has been looking after his new bride while he's away. Namely spending lots of time talking on the phone with her and visiting her whenever he goes home to Miami. This is definitely one of the things I love about Ralph. So when I got home he informed me that Kim (the wife) was stopping by soon. I was so tired so I decided to sit this one out in order to get a nap, but Kim brought her adorable 3 legged cat with her, which unfortunately wouldn't stop crying in the bathroom while they grabbed lunch. So, that coupled with about 7 phone calls in an hour meant no sleep for me. And there's a Sears tomorrow...joy. Ok time for rest, or else I'll actually start to feel my age.

PS For those that love infomercials, I bought the leg magic. And I LOVE IT! Its the most amazing piece of pain inducing equipment I own. I have trouble making it through the 13 minute workout, its that intensive. Alright well that's all for now....

Love to you ladies and your man-meats...
Amanda

What's new?

What's new with everyone? I hope all is well in the worlds of Katie and Amanda. So, I finally finished the sweater that I was crocheting for my friend's babyshower. It is quite cute. All, I have left is to make a pom pom. I promise to post pics when I am absolutely done. Also, I think I will be making matching booties and mittens to go along with the sweater. But, we will see. The babyshower is on Saturday, and I've been really busy with work and so forth (but I have been quite ambitious in terms of my knitting and crocheting projects).

Other than my crocheting episodes, not much has happened (or at least, nothing new has happened). I will be going home from August 5-20. It will be a well-deserved break before school starts.

Well, I don't have much else to say. I look forward to hearing from you all!

Jen

Alright Alright...I get it

Ok it is totally not fair to blame me for not posting when our Internet has been down for the past 4 days...4 DAYS!!! Its like being in the stone age. I couldn't even check email and that is problematic when my job is intimately connected to my email. So...after Ralph connected some new wires and played around with me going, "No, its not connected yet." "Still nothing" "Seriously nothing, yes, I'm looking". But its working so...here we go.

Jen, Jen, Jen. What are we going to do with you? Katie and I keep sneaking away to go to yarn stores and sailing and having uber amounts of fun, and you are in Fl when I leave the state. What is that about? Its been a long ass time since I've seen you. So here's the deal...what's going on for Thanksgiving? Are you going home? Do you and Kevin have plans, because I propose an idea...Katie and Eric may (they better :: insert fist shaking :: ) come to Conn. for Turkey Day. Why don't you and Kevin join us in the frosty north? There is plenty of room for the two of you to sleep there and then we can spend some quality time checking out all the splendors of upstate Conn. and let me tell you...there are like 3 or 4 things to check out.

Ithaca was amazing. I really liked everything we did. It was wonderful to spend so much time with a girl, who isn't one of my employees. Seriously now that I live with Ralph I find myself wishing and dreaming about my girlfriends. I have no one to go shopping with or to complain about my boyfriend with or see all those crazy movies that Ralph would never want to see.

Regarding Wizzer...I know that I already told Katie this, but I'm sorry. He's certainly was a cute bunny, although his pension for eating my ass was less than great. But I'm so sorry that Eric lost his first pet. That is never something easy to go through.

On different note...I saw the new die hard movie too. What wrong with that? Ok so I'm probably not going to post tomorrow...I'm staying in bed and reading the new Harry Potter.

Love ya ladies,

Amanda

It just doesn't make sense

Katie, it doesn't make sense to pay for extra hours when you didn't even think there would be any to begin with. I guess they are trying to extract money from you the best way they can...it's extortion! (lol)

So, where has Amanda been? Long time, no hear. I hope everything is alright.

For those of you who didn't think my boyfriend was nerdy enough, well, he got even nerdier (but, that's why I love him...nerdiness is sexy). Anyway, Kevin is starting to build his command center (a die hard reference...yes, I saw the new die hard movie). He created a server using his old computer and has his own domain name. Go figure. He wants to create a webpage and so forth. I will never be able to tear Kevin away from his computer (j/k Kevin, in case you are reading this).

Oh Katie, the other day I went to the library and found this adorable book called "cute crochet for tiny tots." I've decided to make my friend's baby a blue and white striped sweater with a hood. I even got the most adorable teddy bear buttons (thanks to Kevin). I've already got the back part of the sweater done, so it won't be too long before I have it completely finished. I promise to post pics of the sweater when it is finally completed.

On an entirely different note, I am going to watch a Nats game tonight. Baseball is ok, but after a while, it sort of gets boring.

I guess that is all I have to say for now. I look forward to hearing from you both (that includes you, Amanda).

Love ya bunches,
Jen

Quilting

Ok, so taking a class called "Learn to Quilt in a Day" is way more tiring than it sounds. I was at the quilting store from 9:30 until 5:30, which is half an hour longer than I work most days. Unfortunatly, none of us finished our quilts, so we're going back tomorrow. I don't mind the extra couple of hours; what I do mind is the "Ok, we'll meet back tomorrow at 6:30.... by the way, it'll be six dollars an hour." They misjudged the time it would take us, so why are we paying for it? Oh well. Tomorrow I'll have my first finished quilt. I'll post some pictures.

~Katie

Wizzer pics

He was nothing if not cute.

A memorial for wizzer

Well, Katie, I always knew you and Eric were great parents. I had no doubt about that. I just wish Wizzer didn't have to pass, but at least you know that it wasn't your doing. If you would like, we could have a post as a memorial to wizzer, with cute bunny pics and all. I miss you! If you need anything, don't hesitate to call.

Update

The vet did the necropsy on Wizzer. He said that there was a buildup of bacteria in Wizzer's small intestine that lead to his death. The bacteria can build up when there's an imbalance in the digestive system; the imbalance is caused by stress. Its just something that sometimes happens to rabbits.

So anyway, I feel better that its not our fault. Snoopy seems to be fine, and I'm taking extra precautions (like dumping all the food to make sure its not from some sort of mold) and checking on her alot. She actually let me cuddle her at the vet, which was nice. By the way, she ways 3.9 pounds, which I think is adorable for some reason.

Eric is still upset, but some of his friends made him dinner so he's doing better. I told him we can get another bunny when he's ready. Also, we're donating some money to the House Rabbit Society; if you guys wanna get in on that you can go here. http://www.rabbit.org/

I'm so sorry to hear...

I am so sorry to hear that Wizzer died. I know how much he became part of your (our) family. I'll miss him (even though he could be a pain in the butt...jk...i just wanted to make you laugh). I just want you to know that I am here for you. My heart goes out to your loss. At least you still have fluffy bunnykins... gotta look at the bright side, right?

Sad news

Hey guys, Wizzer died this morning/last night. I woke up to go to work and showered, then came out to the living room to look up the number for the pet boarding place because I'm visiting Eric next week. I looked over at him and he didn't seem to be breathing, so I shook the cage and nothing. I took him and Snoopy to the vet, and Snoopy seems to be fine. They're doing a necropsy on Wizzer to determine cause of death and to make sure its not contagious. I'm not going to Petsmart this morning because I'm too upset, but I promised Julie I'd work at the yarn store today so she could leave early, so I'm still going to do that because if I don't she'll have to close the store.

Eric is incredibly upset. This was his first pet and you know how much he loved Wizzer. I'll update later when I know what happened.

~Katie

Latest knitting project

Tada!!!

He's from Debbie Bliss Knitted Toys. I was gonna give him to Eric's friend's baby, but he's just too cute, so I think I'm gonna keep him.

Update

Hey girlies! Long time, no hear. Anyway, I know that not having access to the internet for a couple of days is not an excuse...but...well, I am sorry. So, how were both of your holidays? I hope you both enjoyed them just as much as I did.

So, I went home for the 4th to celebrate my sister's b-day. We went to Disney World. I had a great time. Stephie and I were able to visit all of the parks including Animal Kingdom, which isn't half bad. On our last day in Orlando, we went to Epcot, which would not have been much fun had we not scoped out the shop at Japan. On top of everything that we did, we went to a place recommended by Rachel Ray...the Colorado Fondue Company (my mom is a huge fan of Rachel Ray). As for my critique of the restaurant - Melting Pot is much, much better. So, that is my week home in a nutshell.

As for my mom, she is handling chemo really well, except for the fact that her stomach hurts. She is still incredibly skinny (i.e.- 80 pounds), but she's been able to eat a lot more. She's definitely hanging in there. On a similar note, I have faith that your (Katie's) grandfather will pull through the surgery.

As for everything else going on in my life, not much has changed. I will be going home again, for two weeks, on August 5th. I am excited to take a break from work and dc...its about damn time (believe me, one week home is not enough).

Today I am going swimming again at Mrs. Kennedy's house. It should be fun. Well, I will post later with more interesting things to talk about, but I thought I should give you both a brief update on my happenings.

P.S. Today will be my 3rd time restarting my dress....what can I say...I'm a perfectionist.

A Present...

Here's a pretty flowers for some pretty ladies...

Quick Note

Ladies forgot to actually publish the link to my new blog...
I know. I know.
Dumbass.

http://mandapants-sigh.blogspot.com/

Also, we got a comment the other day on one of Jen's posts. Who is that guy? Do we have a fan? An admirer? Cause that would be awesome.

Damn I am hungry "like bear" (read A Dirty Job, its great) and the woman sitting next to me at the airport is eating a BAG FULL of Krispy Kreme donuts...Bitch.

More later.
See you soon Katie!!!

Vacation in 3,2,1....

BLASTOFF!!!!

Yes, that's right va-cay. No more joking around. I literally couldn't be happier. I'm almost ready to go, but its still a bit frantic in my room. I'm also trying to finish a book I'm reading so that I don't have to lug another one on the plane.

I'm so excited! Also I decided to make a separate blog site just for me. That way this one can just be about us girlies and any other random crap that I feel like typing out will be up on the other site. I want to keep this one pure and lately I feel like I've been dumping all my useless thoughts on the Girls blog. Its not just about me. I was being a selfish flake and I apologize to my fellow blog-sisters.

You know what I was thinking about today? Siblings. Jen, you have your darling little sis' who if she gets any cuter will have to be taken out for the betterment of us all. Katie, you have an awesome little bro' with your wicked sense of humor. I unfortunately am the last of my namesake. That's right there will never be another "insert last name here" (lets keep some things confidential, right?). My father had 3 brothers. His older brother is only his half brother, and doesn't share his last name. His younger brother is a hermit, who lives with his wife all tucked away where no one can find him. He would be a difficult father, especially since it seems like he is always growing some sort of illegal plant material...cough cough...The baby of the family was gay. So well you do the math. I am the end of the line. My Grandfather's name dies with me, or rather my marriage, if that ever happens. I know this is silly but I was thinking about my kids. If and when, I ever become a happy mom (cue imagery of mini-vans (a hybrid mini-van) and soccer balls) with Ralph my kids will be without aunts and uncles. He is also an only child. I mean I have a large family and Ralph's family is enormous (Catholic...oy!) so its not like there won't be family, but no actual aunts and uncles.

So I've decided. I'm adopting some. Namely you ladies. Keep in mind that I already realize you will have "actual" nieces and nephews, but I've decided and you know how that goes. So you bitches better deal with it. We're family. Our little apt. together was a home. A place where your heart is. And no matter what blood lines we make through marriage or are born into, you ladies are family. No if, ands, or buts.

Alright well I'll give you time to mull this over. And deal with the acceptance.

Amanda

PS How cool is it that Ralph's best friend is a girl? And she's getting married and he's going to be her "Best Person"? Also he's decided to throw her a party (I still can't get him to call it a bachelorette party, but I'm working on it)? My boyfriend is too cute.

A Response

After having read Manda's blog, my hatred toward Elliot has turned into "slightly less" hatred (more like an ill will if I had to name it). I am starting to realize that he was a big part of your life...and probably contributed a bit to who you are...So, I no longer hate him (but, don't ever expect me to be friends with him...as I have said before, you are much bigger than I).

I have never said this before, but do you think things would have been different had we found an apartment together? Or, is this all fate? Maybe it was good that you and Elliot had not worked things out (don't get me wrong), otherwise you would have never found your third love. Ralph is much better.

I don't think you are a slut for having three loves...it adds to experience. You learn from previous relationships and realize how to make your current one better. Maybe having loved before allows you to realize what real love is. Who knows? I think it is great that you have loved twice before, because unlike others, you are able to reflect positively on each. It definitely shows how you've matured and grown. It makes you...you. Besides, the third time is the charm (sorry, i didn't mean to jinx you).

As for Katie, relationships are a two way street. I know that Eric needs to be more thoughtful and actually do something romantic, but you might have to make the first move. I mean...Eric is oblivious (no offense). Give him a push in the right direction...and I am sure he will know how to take it from there. Also, Eric is probably incredibly stressed and can't think of much else at the moment. I know this isn't much of an excuse, but from personal experience, I know that school work has gotten in the way of Jen and Kebby time (one too many times). I know, I know...the nickname is mushy, but that's how Kevin's niece and nephew say his name. I think if you start doing things that are incredibly thoughtful/romantic (not that you haven't), he will get the hint. I mean he does go to Cornell (he's gotta be smart, right?).

As I've said before, we are all lucky to be in love...and with every love, we need to do our part.

On an entirely different note...I got totally buzzed off of 1/4 of a long island. Sad isn't it? I miss those days when Manda and I drank straight from a tequila bottle.

Much love,

Jen

Gettin' in on this Love thing

First of all, hold on hold on Miss Mandapants, when did I ever hate you? When you broke up with Elliot the first time you assumed that we would all be angry with you, but really I just thought it was one of those things. I mean yeah, I felt bad for Elliot, but I didn't really think you two had been dating long enough for it to be a bridge-burning sort of thing.

Alright... love.

I... hmm...

So....

Yeah... I don't know how to start. I mean, I love Eric and all, but we've been together for 8 years. The sparks are gone, and I miss them. When I started dating Eric I decided that I wouldn't break up with him for stupid reasons like boredom, that I would only break up with him if I stopped loving him. I don't have any major complaints, I just wish he would be more thoughtful, and occasionally romantic. Oh, and possibly pay attention to me. That'd be sweet.

Enough whining. I'm doing five things at once right now, so I'll go for now. More later.

~Katie

Love part 2

Ok so I reread the first post and worry that it came off a little melodramatic. That actually wasn't my intention its just that lately love is on my brain. Maybe its the liberal medias fault or something of that nature.

Alright, so part 2. Here we go. I read the response Jen made about only being in love once and it occurs to me that of the lovely ladies on this website I'm the only one of the three of us to be in love more than once. I mean really. Katie even had the nerve to marry her high school sweetheart, you guys make me feel like the super slut in this threesome of ours. (Mostly joking...mostly.)

So now we are up to Elliot. Elliot was a weird one. The first time Elliot asked me out or we dated or whatever was so strange that looking back on it I almost don't feel like I can even remember 100% what happened. I mean I knew that Elliot had a thing for me. And had, had one, for a long time. So I almost think that the first time we tried dating it was mostly about a warped sense of pity. I mean when someone is your best friend you want to make him happy, right? Well, I tried. That didn't even come close to working. Shit, we didn't even kiss. I was way too weirded out. Then we went through a really awkward period where half my friend hated my ass (cough..cough...KATIE...cough...cough). Which was completely understandable. Eventually we started to patch things up and then, poof, it was easier to like Elliot. I mean there weren't anymore expectations or pity. It was just us. And it made sense. We made sense. We laughed at the same jokes, appreciated the same movies, had the same goals, the same dreams, the same long term expectations. That's the making of a perfect relationship, right? Well, sort of. Most of our 2.5 year relationship we agreed. When we had a fight we knew who was wrong, almost before the fight started. We were almost too in sync. I mean where is the fun when you already know what the other person is going to say. Where's the excitement? The adventure? The challenge?

Dating someone you know for forever has its plus side too of course. Elliot was reliable, almost to a fault. He was there most of the time when I needed him. He knew me. I mean really knew me, my past, my relationships, my everything. He knew my parents. Hell, my mom had been waiting for us to start dating for years. That's a lot of pressure on a couple. His mother was extremely involved from the start. I mean intimately involved. Sandy, started offering sex advice from the minute we started thinking about dating. She offered relationship advice, before we started dating. It was almost like dating the entire family. Our love life was never private. Never special. There was no need not to share anything with my girlfriends because you already knew it all. EVERYONE DID! That is probably one of the biggest problems with our relationship. But with all that said, I did love him. And it was different, because I was older, smarter, and he and I were heading in the same direction. I had jumped leaps and bounds since Jeff. I trusted Elliot more than ever trusted any other boyfriend. He had always been there for me as a friend, and now as a boyfriend. But when the time came down for me to move cross country and give up everything I'd ever known (except you Jen, mainly cause you'd be local). He couldn't give me what I needed. He couldn't promise me anything, not a commitment, not a time line, nothing.

In the end he let me down. Let me know that my faith had always been strong enough for the both of us, except at one point. I carry no ill will toward him and what's scary is that I still consider him a friend. I probably always will. If he really needed me, I'd be there. I don't love him anymore. That ended the day he couldn't manage to dump me, so I did it for him. I don't know if I told you all that. That I dumped myself for him. He couldn't get the words out. So I did it. And that was the end. Even with that, he's still just Elliot. The Simpson's movie is coming out and I'm almost having trouble with the idea of seeing it without him. It almost feels like some sort of betrayal.

Elliot was my second love. He was someone special taught me the importance of boundaries, and the importance of being an individual in a relationship. I mean where did Elliot stop and I begin. That's not healthy. And in some way I see him as my high school sweetheart, even though we didn't start dating until college.

That just leaves love #3. More on that later...
Amanda

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Katie, I am so sorry to hear that your grandfather has cancer....it's a struggle, but I am sure he will get through it. I understand how you feel when the Drs. say one thing and then another...it happened to my mom. When I found out my mom had pancreatic cancer, I felt miserable...I wouldn't wish cancer on anyone. I'm sorry you couldn't hear better news. At least they finally figured out what was wrong with him...it could be worse, right? It is always good to stay as positive as possible for you and your grandfather. I am sure the surgery will go smoothly and the cancer will be eradicated. I have faith.

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As for Manda's query about love...I have only been in love once and that is with Kevin. I couldn't imagine being in love with anyone else. I knew I was in love with Kevin even before he said "I love you" to me. Love is a wonderful thing. We are all so lucky to have been and still be in love. On that note --- I love you girls!!

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Adding on to a post that I made a few days ago...I went to Mrs. Kennedy's house and it was enormous. It had two stories and sat on a huge piece of property. The pool house was incredible...probably even bigger than my own apartment. There was a side for the men to change and another for the women. The pool house was decorated with pics of celebrities and of RFK. It was amazing. Never thought I would be swimming at a Kennedy's house. All in all...I had so much fun. It also makes me want to adopt...more on that later. (I thought I would leave you hanging - make this post a little more suspenseful - lol.)

Love,
Jen