Hey all

Katie, I'm so sorry to hear that your grandfather's not taking chemo so well...but, give it time...he'll make it through. He'll kick cancer's ass. Once he's done with all this, he will then be able to join the "I Totally Kicked Cancer's Ass Club." Sorry, but that was my sad attempt at humor. I hope it helped. Also, your family is coming together...isn't that a good thing?

I was waiting for Amanda to post something about college football. Kevin and I are actually planning to go to the local alumni hangout to watch the UF v. Western Kentucky game. I know that we will totally dominate, but it should still be fun. I want to start the season off right with discounted pitchers and a good game.

So, what is everybody's plan for this long weekend? Me...I'm planning to start working on my thesis. Not looking forward to it, but I rather get it done early than wait till the last minute (am I actually saying this?). Anyway, I figured if I wrote my goal down, I would be more likely to get it done (highly doubt it), but who cares.

What's on the needles you ask? A bias halter top. I haven't lined the dress I finished when I was home, but as soon as I get the chance, I will and take pics of it. Also, I am planning to start a sweater dress soon (maybe, we'll see how much I get accomplished this weekend).

As for getting the attention from boys...its always nice and especially flattering...no matter where it comes from.

Love ya mucho,

Jen

Jeez

Alright bummer babes...time for a perk up. I stop posting for like 2 days and everyone takes a turn for the bleh...
So here we go. I have two words for you ladies...

COLLEGE FOOTBALL!
That's right! Tonight is the night. LSU vs. Miss. St. Do I care anything about this game? You betcha. SEC on Thurs. night. PLUS! There is a Bucs pre-season game on ABC. Hello! Football nirvana! Luckily I have two tvs in the living room! I am totally excited about today.

So I unraveled my sweater...ugh. BUT on the plus side, I've started it over. And, it looks better this time than the last time. I don't think I'm going to run out of yarn and the increases are making a cool design on the yoke. Its good. Its GOOOD.

Also, I'm totally feeling good about myself. For some reason, I'm getting a lot of male attention lately. Gary, Nitin, and Randy have all been vying for my attention. Nitin has been sending me an insane amount of texts each day...which is ok, I guess, weird mostly. Gary has been calling me and talking to me at break everyday, oh and occasionally buying me breakfast. And Randy has been following me around stores asking me questions and for help, when he doesn't really need it. And...all of this makes Ralph more responsive. I know its kind of silly but having one cute boy, and two less than cute boys doting on me makes me feel like one sexy lady. Is that dumb? Gary even told me yesterday that he prefers older women. I am not interested in any of them, except Ralph of course, but for some reason having a little attention from someone other than my boyfriend makes me all giggly. Am I acting silly here?

Whatever... knitting, football, and a good cold beer. That's all that I'm thinking about.

Love you ladies!

Kicky La'Roue
(PS I've decided to keep the name...it rocks.)

Suckiness

Well, I'm going down to FL Sept 14-16 to see my grandpa, cause he's not doing so good. The chemo is really hard on him, and even with it he isn't expect to live longer than a year. But the good thing that has come out of all of this is that my mom and aunt have been helping take care of him, shuttling him to the doctor and such, and he's really appreciating my mom. Yesterday when she got to the house he was like, "Oh, its you - thank God". My mom thinks its funny that they had so many fights the last couple years (including those fun vacations where she swore at him) but now she's the one he wants to see. I'm hoping that this will help my mom out, cause a lot of her problems come from her relationship with him.

And I've given up on the knitted shirt for now. I'm pretty sure I'm just going to have to rip it out, so I need to wait a while before I can do that. Instead I started some orange and blue knee high socks. I figure I'll be able to work on them at least every gator game.

All my posts lately have been bummers. I'll post something perkier next time.

~Katie

I'm Tired and Bored

Ok...today started off at 8:00 or so... I got ready, had some breakfast, etc. Then I went to work at 9:30. I worked from 9:30-3:00, no big deal. Class started at 4:00...and I am still here. I am in my second class for the day. My day will not end until my third and final class, which should be over at 9:50. I'm already exhausted and my day isn't over yet. I actually wanted to exercise this morning, but I am sort of glad I didn't. Man, I don't know if I can do this for the entire semester. I mean, I know I will do it, but I felt like using this post to bitch a little...I'm sorry. Tomorrow, I work at my other job beginning at 8:30. Ahh...the life of a law student.

As for Katie's post, I'm sorry to hear about your project being too big due to the guage and so forth...you could always wear 4 sweaters underneath....lol.

Well, I should start paying attention to class...I will talk to you both later. It is only the second week of school, and I am already not paying attention.

Not dead (yet),
Jen

D'oh!

So, I've been knitting this shirt for like, a month or so. I finished the back today, and realized... its way too big. After a while, I figured out that I originally set out to knit a size above my bust size (a 42 instead of a 38) since its made to be worn over something. But when I checked my gauge it was 5.5 stitches instead of 5.75, so it would come out a little bigger, so no prob, I'd just make the size 38. Except that, by the time I actual got to make the shirt, I had forgotten the gauge thing and made the 42 inch size. So its really going to be about 45 inches. Too big. So now I've got to figure out what to do about it.

Maybe Amanda and I can average our projects.....

Ladies, ladies, ladies

I am sitting here watching the Red Sox v. White Sox game, impatiently waiting for the Bucs preseason game to start. Wow. Cool commercial. Tiger Woods vs. a little girl in his video game...the little girl drives farther than him. Bitchin'. Chicks rule.

So I started my socks over again, with a larger gauge. Its closer to a worsted weight and I switched to an easy pattern. I bought this book on knitting socks...basically "Knitting Socks for Idiots". I also unraveled my 4 inches of aran vest, I decided that the waviness of the yarn was ruining the effect of the cables, so I bought some alpaca and plan on starting it over. My sweater and I aren't speaking right now. I just look at it an sigh. What a mess. I don't have the heart to unravel 20 something inches of body work right now. So I've set it aside. I was trying to find some sort of pattern for socks for sailors. I read some where at some time that you could knit them and send them overseas, but the location of that information eludes me and I can't seem to find it with Google.

So that's what I've been up to today, other than grocery shopping, and beating Ralph in Monopoly, although he always plays only at like 3/4 strength against me (irritating...). Jen, about Halloween Horror Nights, I would love to come. I need to check on some stuff with work and school, but send me the details and I will let you know. I would really love to see you. Is Kevin coming? Ralph may be able to come, maybe not. I don't know just yet. Of course, I don't expect your folks to pay my way in. Are they spending the night with us in the park or is it just you, Kevin, and your sis? Are you getting a hotel room? If so let me know the details for that too, because I'd rather not drive 1.5 hours back home. Uh...oh yeah, and can I bring your birthday present down when I see you? That way I'll know if you like it or not...You'd better like it. Actually its weird but I already have it picked out. Found it online and couldn't resist.

Katie, how's Eric? Enjoying the final year of law school? (that goes for you too Jen?) Is it nice for him to be home? How are the new neighbors? Enjoying the company? What are you knitting? You too, Jen? What's on everyone's needles, oh and any finished projects need pictures, silly rabbits.

Ok love to you both!

Kicky La'Roue!

To make up for my lack of posts....

Amanda, I'm so glad to hear that you and Ralph are working it out. I hate seeing you so upset. Maybe the fact that you both worked through your problems, means that this is a lasting relationship (otherwise, you both would've given up). Sorry for the exagerrated optimism, but I thought I should put in my two cents.

So, now that we each have "interesting" fictional names, maybe we should come up with a fictional name characterizing our three girl group. Just a thought.

Oh, just to let you all know (specifically Amanda, since she will be in Florida, sorry Katie), I will be coming down for the weekend of October 5-8. As an early celebration of my birthday, my parents are treating me to Halloween Horror Nights and the Universal Resort Parks. If you have no plans, knowing you Amanda, you already do, you are more than welcome to meet me in Orlando on Friday night (the 5th). Sorry, my parents are only footing the bill for my sister and me (however, they may treat you to dinner - all depending of course). Also, Kevin is coming. It will be nice to see you (both). I'm going to see if any other friends who are still in Gainesville, like Lauren, would like to come. It should be fun. As you both may know, Halloween is my all time favorite holiday (besides my b-day, jk). So, whether or not you both think it is dorky that I am so excited about Halloween Horror Nights, I don't care.

Speaking of Halloween, is anyone going to see the new Halloween movie. I am! I like the old school Halloweens much better than the newer ones, but maybe this one will surprise me. Who knows?

Remember our Halloween parties? They were some of the best parties of my college life. I can still remember seeing MattMike make out with Lauren and later comandeering my bed, drinking warm beer the day after (including skittle flavored beer), beeing attacked by the "spider webs" and the giant garbage spider, and hearing how many orgasms Amanda had. Those were the days. I miss you guys.

Before I start tearing up, I should end this post. Besides, you both are probably bored by now.

I miss you both!!! Hope to see at least one or both of you soon!!

Love ya,
Jen

Oh what's in a name?

Alright alright, so a name eh. When I was a kid Pippi Longstocking was a rad character for me. I loved the red hair and freckles. I also was a big fan of Jessica Rabbit, like Jen. Something about redheads...shit even that character Red from Fraggle Rock. But I always loved the name Aurora, because that was Sleeping Beauty's name. She was always singing. I always wanted to be a great singer. At most, the best I've ever been is a semi-decent character voice. So maybe Aurora. I also really liked the name Samantha as a girl because that was the name of my American Girl doll...the one with glasses. Even though I didn't wear glasses until after high school.

But I think that I really like the idea of a badass name. Like Kicky La'Roue. Yeah, Kicky La'Roue. That's a rockin' name.

So Ralph and I are back together. We are working together better than we have in months and things have been wonderful. That coupled with starting school again and finally being able to see the end of working a dead-end job where I'm completely unappreciated. This is the end of a period in my life that began with Elliot and is starting over with me. I mean Ralph is there too, but its still just me. I'm making the decisions and Ralph is just happy to come along for the ride. I am finally starting to feel like an actual adult. Not just a teenagers pretending or playing dress up.

Anyway, I know that sounds a little sad, but actually its a happy thing...But for now, this is all.

So long from Kicky La'Roue!

Geez louise

Ok, ok, I'll post already (jk). Sorry for not posting much lately, but I've been trying to get back into the swing of things. On Monday, I just got back from being in Florida, on Tuesday, I started my new job, got books, and cleaned my apt., and yesterday, I managed to work at my other job and go to class. So, as you can see, my time has been consumed with absolute nonsense (lol). As far as my fictional name goes, I remember always pretending to be a Jessica when I was little. I'm not sure why. I guess I always wanted to be like Jessica Rabbit...I don't know. So there, now you know my fictional name...I just couldn't keep it secret any longer.

Well, I miss you girls.

Jen

Where the heck are you guys?

Hey, if you don't respond to my post soon, your fictional names are gonna be Lazy O'NoPost and Quiet McDisapearsalot. You can have an Irish/Scottish feud. It'll be great.

On a completely different note, Eric comes back today. Now I'll only have time to check the blog 5 times a day instead of 10. I went to Victoria Secret today and got a little something that says, "Welcome home honey". Its a good day to be me.

Random question

So, if there were a fiction version of you, what would your name be? I always used Gabrielle when I was younger, but I dunno now.

And Jesus tap-dancing Christ, I just caught a spider and chucked it outside. The 4th spider in 2 days. Even I'm becoming a little arachniphobic. Especially since one of them was hiding in my clean shirt and I didn't discover it until I was turning the shirt right-side out and it started crawling on my arm. Girlie, girlie screams until I knocked it off and figured out what it was. I'll be lucky if Eric doesn't come home and instantly have a heart attack.

Oy.

~ Katie

I'm not dead and I have not won the lottery

I'm so sorry for not posting. I've been home in Florida for the past week, and our wireless doesn't work. I've been too lazy to use my parents' computer because I'm so used to being able to just type away in front of the tv or something. So, there, now you know I'm just lazy and not a millionaire. Also, I don't really care for my parents' keyboard, it just feels wierd.

As for my happenings, not much has happened. However, I should win the crown for being the clumsiest person ever. Being that I do not belong to a gym down here in the sunshine state, I thought roller-blading would be a good way of keeping off those unwanted pounds while I am here. So, after not having rollerbladed for several months, I decided to do so anyway. I had no problems after rollerblading two miles, so I was feeling damn good. But, as I was walking through the grass to get to the sidewalk, I somehow tripped over myself and landed on the concrete. No broken bones, but rather gashes that hurt like hell. I am still rollerblading to this day, so I have yet to learn my lesson. How else am I going to make up for not going to the gym? My gashes look disgusting, and I haven't been able to shave around my knees because it hurts too much. Nice mental image, huh?

Last week we went outlet shopping. I found these beautiful Michael Kors shoes for only $20! I was so excited. They make my feet hurt, but beauty is pain, right?

I have also finished the dress I was knitting. I still need to line it. So, I will post pics when I get back to Arlington.

My family is doing well. I helped my sister make decorative pillows. My mom only has 10 days of radiation left. She has not felt any adverse side effects....thank God. After radiation, she will have three cycles of chemo, and hopefully will be done by December. By the way, Katie, how is your grandfather?

So now, you all know where I have been. Sorry for not posting that much, but I will try harder.

Love you both,
Jen

Sorry I'm not in right now I'm knitting with the spider webs

Ok, so this new yarn we got, Filatura di Crosa's Suprema is 70% cashmere 30% silk. Oh. My. God. Its similiar to one of the mohair/silk blends, like Rowan's Kid Silk Haze or Cascade's Kid Seta, but way softer. Which says something, cause those are already soft yarns. Its so lightweight, that it feels seriously as light as a spiderweb. I love it. Its $25 for 330 yards, so I'm not gonna be making a lot with it though. One skein will make a lacy scarf, so I'll proabably do that.

Where the heck is Jen? Manda and I post here and on our own blogs (mine is here http://geminidragon5.blogspot.com/ btw). Sure I might not post on mine very often, but I post here. Who knows what Jen is up to now? She could have won the lottery and decided that we're all losers and split for the Caribbean. In fact, until I hear otherwise, my mental image of Jen is her in a swimsuit, lying in a hammock on the beach with a umbrella drink flipping me off. You better post something unless you want me to start getting bitter...

Eric gets back next week. Halieluia. Halleighluia? How the heck do you spell that? Meh. Either way it spells Katie-can-finally-get-some-again. Woo. Oh, Manda, Vegetarian Times has veggie high-holiday foods. Sure you're not doing the Jewish thing anymore, but some of the recipies look pretty damn good and it made me think of you. Anyway, my dinner just beeped, so I gotta go.

~Katie

Jen?

Uh...donde esta mi amiga Jen? I understand you are crazy busy girlie, but Katie needs entertainment from this blog. She is sans-husband. No sex...that leads to unhealthy levels of the hormone crazitine...

Its side effects include:
Excessive knitting
Trying to cook an insane amount of new recipes
Reading an unhealthy amount of comic books
And looking at the hot downstairs neighbor too much (so much that he wonders if there is something on his pants, at all times)

Please don't let Katie fall victim to this terrible debilitating condition.

As for me, I have WAY too much testosterone following around me...without you I just start wondering whether or not dating women would be such a bad idea. I have what's known as Anti-testosteronitisis.

Symptoms include:
Excessive knitting
Lack of sleep
And wondering if Ellen DeGeneres isn't the perfect man.

Sincerely hoping you remember your female duties soon!
Amanda

Golf

Ok...I consider myself pretty sports-literate. I mean I watch ESPN, a lot (probably too much). I pretty much watch all sports on TV. Including, baseball, soccer, golf, hockey, basketball, and FOOTBALL!!! So it is very rare when something makes me set aside my knitting and go..."What the fuck?"

I'm watching the PGA championship on CBS and trying to finish my Dad's hat. Tiger Woods is putting a doozy for a birdie. I was not paying 100% attention, due to my need to find a way to buy 12 balls of Noro Silk Garden, without paying $100. But the commentator made me almost do a spit take with nothing in my mouth...

Tiger lines up the shot.
The crowd is quiet.
He putts.
Rolling...
SINKS!!!

And the commentator says "Man, that guy sure knows how to roll a potato"...
What?
Wait...what?
Call my Dad...

"Did he just say roll a potato?"
"Yes, he did"

What?

Golf commentators need to lay off the crack. Because in that one moment they managed to confuse all of the golf watching Americans. Ever. Shit, Jack Nicklaus and Arnold Palmer just scratched their heads and did a shrug.

Seriously.
Weird.

Amanda

I;m drunk.
gin and tonixs
good
yum yum in my tum tum
I love u guys

more gin lesss tonix

MANDA

Never in a million years

Ladies, you know I love you. I would take a bullet for you. I'd give you an organ. I would kill for you (please ask me to kill for you). However, today on TLC, I exactly where I draw the line.

I will not wear matching outfits. I don't mean, we all wear the same gator shirt, or, obviously, bridesmaids dresses, or something like that. I mean, matching clothes, down to the underwear, on some random day of the week (or everyday, like these two). ESPECIALLY if this outfit involves capris. :::shudder:::

Just thought you should know.

~Katie

Well ladies that's all she wrote

I posted in mostly detail about Ralph and I on the other blog. I need to put one conversation topic on one site and different ones on the other. But well fuck it. I don't care. So as Ralph is leaving he calls me to ask if I'm coming home. He says that he wants to make sure to say goodbye. He even takes time to hug me and kiss me on the cheek. I can't tell if this is his way of saying goodbye for good or not. Mostly I don't say anything and just pack up my laundry.

I thought that I would be angry or hurt or sad. But in all actuality I just feel numb. I saw this coming so the rage is not there, I'm not sad for some unknown reason, and I don't feel hurt. Mainly I just feel some weird sort of acceptance. I'm not going to dwell on it. All I know is that I have the apartment to myself for almost 2 weeks and that's more than enough time to come to terms with the fact that I may in fact be single again.

Unfortunately Jen, when Ralph and I tried to spend quality time together he mainly sat there not talking to me. I don't think quality time works when the other person is unable to talk to you. Or let you know when he's leaving for 2 weeks. I'm pretty sure he's stopped caring about this relationship and I'm pretty sure I'm done begging him to work it out with me. I'm tried of trying to change every little thing to make me seem more likeable to him. He has no trust in me. How can you be with someone who doesn't trust you? Especially when you haven't done anything to make the trust go away.

Alright if I have to talk about this anymore I'm going to pass out. I need to get my laundry done and clean the bathroom, because even when all else fails I'm still me. And I clean when I'm upset.

Amanda

I just learned something shocking about myself....

I still have a sense of decency.

I know. I'll give you a minute to let that sink in. I thought years of college and being roommates with Amanda had all but squashed any possibility of me being embarrassed. I told a women's studies class that I like porn, for crying out loud. But today at Borders, I found a book that literally made me blush.

http://www.amazon.com/Ceremony-Seduction-Cassie-Ryan/dp/0758220650

The cover has two naked people getting it on, so naturally it caught my attention. I like dirty books, so I read the back. Sounds interesting: I flip to the second page to read,

He ran his hands over her behind. "Mmm, someday, my cock will stretch this tight ass of yours."

That's on page two. After reading about two more sentences, I realized my cheeks were feeling a bit warm and I had to put the book down. I think I'm gonna have to order it, cause I don't know if I could walk up to the cashier with it. So I mean, I guess I don't have MUCH of a sense of decency, cause I still totally want to read it.

Just thought after all the serious posting you guys might find this amusing.

~ Katie

Hurray for Not Breaking Something!

Dude. Seriously. I am the most accident prone person in the world. The whole damn thing. I running my CVS today and it was going ok. I mean it took too long and Larry thought it would be keen to give my 4 new hires (in a crew of 12), but whatever. My shoes were not the ones I usually wear because when I run my stores I get to wear business casual as appose to uniform. So yeah, they ended up getting huge blisters on my feet which promptly burst and then left me with a great little limp for the rest of the day. But wait...there's more...so as I'm finally leaving and heading over to Lowe's for more work shit, an SUV comes tearing ass into the parking lot and runs over my blistered foot. No shit. And all they could think to say was..."Oops! Sorry about that!"

RAGE!!!!! FUCK YOU! You just fucking rolled over my foot! Oops doesn't cover it. So now I'm sitting here with ice on it and its starting to swell. But I don't think its broken. Just bruised real bad and achy. (My toes can still sort of move and its not turning black or anything weird)

As for Ralph and I...well I don't know. He's acting like everything is normal or normalish and I'm letting a lot of shit go. I did talk to him about what was eating me, but I think he just needs some time before we get into some more. I'm not bitchin' out or anything, but death complicates matters. Although he still isn't discussing who died, or what the deal is. I wonder if that's Ralph's idea of a coping mechanism. I still an a little uncertain about us, but the other day we spent all day playing around with each other and that was good. Plus yesterday he spent like 20 minutes tickling me and stuff like that. So I don't know. This is complicated. Oh and he ran out to get me an ace bandage without any assistance. Let me tell you pushing in a clutch with a aching left foot is killer.

Love to my ladies,
Amanda

PS

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY KEVIN!!! (I know its 3 days late...sorry)

Advice for Manda

First, who died? I was worried it was something like that.

Second... I think your mom is a little too worried (but that's a mom's job, right?). I think that this is an important point in your relationship, and that it will either rise like a phoenix, or die out, but either way you can see it coming. I think part of what made your breakup with Elliot so hard was that it came out of nowhere. There we were, on our way to Wal-Mart, and BAM! Break-up time. I'm not saying that it wouldn't be hard, I'm just saying you're more emotionally ready.

And if you need someplace to be... come up here. Seriously. We have a second bedroom. Sure, Snoopy might be miffed that we kick her out of it, but I'm sure she'd get over it quickly when she realized that her auntie would be back to spoil her. And God knows I need someone to yell at me to keep the place clean. And you could even have a job lined up; I know there's a RGIS up here, cause they left their tags on the bookshelves at Borders. (One shelf in the comic section contains like $3800 worth of books: I know where to go when I'm in a stealin' mood). Or wait until we move out to Minneapolis. Its a great city (when its bridges aren't falling down). I could exploit you for free child care, um, I mean, get your help raising my kids. You could get your nursing degree and work for the Mayo clinic; then you could come home and lie in your bathtub of money (which I'm assuming you'd get from working there).

I am, however, serious that you could come up and stay with me. I also believe that no matter how things turn out, it will work out for the best for you, because you're a great person and the universe owes you in karma.

Call me anytime; if I'm at work I'll get back to you ASAP.

~Katie

P.S. Jen, you could move out to Minneapolis too. Then the three of us could work out a child-care exchange and live in fear of the bridges together. Plus, its hard to say no to a city with 10 yarn stores.

Rage-ahol...

I just don't know. So Ralph got home last night at like 3am. I was asleep finally even though it took like 4 hours to get to bed. I didn't get to talk to him though because I was due to be up at 5am and needed that 2 hours to try and sleep a little more. So I went to work and got home really early. At work, I had to tell Larry that Ralph wasn't coming in today because he got home really late, etc. He then proceeded to tell me that he hopes Ralph is dealing with the death stuff ok. So hmm...what death. What death indeed. I went home and crawled into bed with Ralph and tried to hold him for the next 3 hours or so. Don't get me wrong I'm still pissed. I don't think people should treat others like garbage, regardless of the situation. We ended up talking a bit later that afternoon. I confronted him about not trusting me and not having faith in me. I mean, jesus, he told Larry before he told me anything. But, death is tricky. I don't know how I feel to be honest. I'm mad that he has no faith in me that I could be of any help with this situation. I'm mad that I feel mad. I just wish I knew where I stood with him. And when I asked him that very question he didn't really have an answer for me. Just that he understands the type of person I am and what I can handle and what I can't. That drives me crazy. Why do people make so many judgments. I mean they are human nature, but I hate being labeled so generically especially by Ralph.

So after this, I chilled for a while and worked out again. Gods bless endorphins. Then I asked him if he wanted to see a movie and we decided to go see I Know Who Killed Me (it sucked, hooker Lindsay Lohan is not enough to make a movie). We ended up both disliking it and talking about it on the ride home. Which was nice. I don't know how to fix this situation. Or even if I can. Maybe we're on a collision course and I can only brace myself for the inevitable crash. Here's hoping I have a big fucking airbag...

Meanwhile my Mom is flipping out. She thinks that the same shit will happen like before, only without Katie nearby. So she's worried about me going on anti-depressants again, and shit like that, but really I don't think the situations are the same. I'm certainly not as naive as I was with Elliot, and I'm much more protective of myself. That doesn't mean I don't need lovely lady support though.

Alright...enough for now.
Love you both!
Manda

Newly Single?

Ok. So. Hmm. Today bites. So read the other blog to catch up because I'm not going to re-write it all. Too lazy. The things I left out...
On the way home, I asked Ralph if he wanted to see a movie, go to the Devil's Milhopper, or the Gator Farm...all to which he replied "No." and finally he stated that he didn't want to go out. And here's the quote...
"But I can give you money and you can go out. I know you have friends of your own." Yeah. Now I'm a hooker, with a bedside table attached to my hip, and apparently I'm sleeping with Nitin, Gary, Larry, shit random people on the side of the road. This rocky relationship is driving me crazy, but I have learned remarkable control. (I mean I didn't stab him for that comment) Then after he goes to take a nap, and I go lay down eventually, he wakes me to tell me he's leaving for his aunt's house (in Tampa). He won't tell me why, just that "its none of my business, and not to worry about it". Will he be back tonight? Tomorrow? Never? Who the fuck knows.

RAGE!!!!!!!

So yeah. I talked to my mom about it and she seems to think that maybe he has communication problems...uh...duh. But I am 24 years old. He's soon to be 26. I'm done with this type of shit. High School is over. If I wanted to sleep with someone else, guess what? I WOULD!

So I went to the gym and worked out until I almost vomited. Which made me feel a little better, not much though. Then I took a burning shower and now I'm just at a loss. I don't know what I'm going to do. I love him. I love us. Why do I always have to work to keep this relationship afloat? Not to mention all the shit that has happened to me during this relationship...uh...TWICE! Not once, TWICE! (Jen call me and I'll fill you in, I've been too embarrassed to share, and I won't put it on the web for anyone's viewing pleasure). So that's me, and today, in a nutshell.

I'm not even sure that this post is coherent. Fuck it.

Men suck.
Amanda

Moral is at an all-time low

First, Jen, the sweater is really cute. I totally forgot to take a picture of mine before I gave it away, but I'll see if they'll send me one.

Ok... I think I may hate quilting. I've almost finished sewing the quilt for my grandpa, and it looks shitty. The corners of the blocks don't line up, and I'm trying to do the binding, and that's just frustrating the hell out of me. You have to be super precise when you cut, super precise when you sew, and I'm just not that anal. You know who'd love this hobby? Jen. Jen has the patience to totally work it all out, and rip it out if its off. I don't. I like that you can get a big product in a relatively short amount of time, but I don't like the amount of stress that goes along with it. Ugh.

Gods bless knitting.

Thanks for the accolade

Thanks for being so great about my sweater. I'm glad other people like it. At first, I didn't think it was good enough (you know me)...but, then it grew on me. Anyway, to stop wasting your time, I found a really good website for charities. This website rates charities based on how well they utilize charitable contributions. It might be good to check the website out, so that we can make absolutely sure our support goes to the right people. Here's the link www.charitynavigator.org.

Also, I have a new internship that I will be starting in the fall. I will be working at an immigration law firm. I am quite excited. I will actually be using my legal skills for good!

Love ya both,
Jen

Gushing....

Jen...two words...Simply Adorable. That is the cutest (completed) baby sweater I've ever seen (I haven't forgotten yours Katie, but no pics, no praise). I love the little buttons! Too cute! Although should Kevin really be wearing it like that? Don't you think he might stretch it out? And duh...of course she loved it. A. Its hand-made which means it took a lot more thought and care than something store bought B. Its from you, which means it was probably wrapped all cutesy and tied with a bow. C. It literally was probably the most perfectest crocheted sweater ever...not a single boo-boo.

I really want to think of something we could do like each month for a organization. Maybe we could pick a new cause every month and that way we could do cancer stuff, aids stuff, kids stuff, women stuff, etc. I was thinking that we could turn it into something that other people could join too, if they wanted, like we could have a chosen charity of the month and people could join up with us if they liked that particular charity, but if the next month didn't suit them, well no big deal. What do you guys think? I was also thinking we could have like a name to cover it all like Moms Rock! or Save the Planet! or Wake up and Smell the Charity! I don't know those are on the spot and I haven't really slept in 2 days...so you ladies will probably think up some better idea. I know that one month I would really like to do this charity where for only like $15 you can give vaccines to a family in Haiti. Haitian kids are dying of the stupidest diseases like diarrhea, rubella, and measles (basically stuff that there are cures for). Plus Ralph is Haitian so I like the idea of doing something along those lines. We could even make this part of the blog and if people on the internet what to join up that'd be awesome right?

Ok those are my ideas for the day...I've exhausted myself. You guys toss around some name ideas and we can figure all this out.

Gaia Girls! (just an idea)
Love,
MANDA!